2012 was probably one of my most difficult years. Sometimes the most difficult years turn you into a wiser and much stronger person. It's the hurdles and obstacles you must overcome. The days where you wish you could stay in bed and avoid everyone and everything. Or the days where you wish you could hit that "redo" button. Wouldn't that be nice? But nothing can compare to the beautiful sunsets. The mornings you do get out of bed, and find yourself holding your stomach because you are laughing so hard. Those are the times in 2012 that I was able to say," I made it through this. And I learned something along the way."
First, thing I learned in 2012 is that living is beautiful. Not just life, but actually living. I am a teenager and have already had plenty of days where I wished I could just melt away, disappear, or not have to face another day. But it was always something that occurred on those days that made me realize that living and being able to live is beautiful. Being able to wake up to birds chirping is a pain in the you- know- what. But it's the most beautiful thing to hear their little soundtrack. It gives you that verification that are actually alive. That are you able to step out of your door and into a new day with new possibilities. With so many people that have died in 2012, I was granted with so many ways of allowing me to see how living is actually beautiful.
Second, I cannot expect to do well on everything and live up to my high expectations. This year I made my first B on my report card. Yes, I'm a ninth grader that has not made anything below an A before in my life. Physical science truly did kick my rear end this year. I spent many days this semester beating myself up and losing myself in work just so I could a column of A's on my report card. But that B came out and said,"Hey, I know you never seen me before, but there's always next semester to see A." It took about a day (shorter than I expected) for me to get over it. During that twenty- four hours, I was able to have a personal conversation with myself. The one thing I remember saying is ,"If you can't handle a B on your report card, then Honey, you sure can't handle what's in your future."This year I came to the realization that my high expectations weren't healthy and that I had to lower them.
Third, I learn to embrace the body I have. This year along with the past years of my life I struggled with my weight. There were several health issues I thought had that could have been the cause of my weight problems. Thank God, nothing was wrong with me, but I still felt very down that I didn't know the reason for me being overweight. To be honest, I'm not even that overweight. It's just the pressure of society and let's face it Tumblr pictures that made me want to be so thin. That kept me up many nights during 2012 thinking about the twenty pounds I wanted to lose in the year. Well, I diddn't lose twenty pounds. I lost three. And I'm proud to say,"I love my body."
Fourth,words do hurt people. I have been on the receiving end and the one to dish out words that do hurt people. I don't care how much you say that words don't hurt you, they do. Hurtful words cause people to over think and read between the lines of what was said to them. And the sad thing about it is that you start to believe those words are true. Guess, what they are not! Think before you speak because saying something hurtful is the quickest way to lower someone's self esteem.
And I couldn't end the year without talking about boys. I have very little personal experience with boys because I am not willing to give myself away to some immature lad. But trust me I am an experienced observer when it comes to my friend's relationships. So do not fall head over heels for a boy because most guys don't feel that way for you. Do not let boys ruin your day because of a fight from last night or not getting a morning text. Like I said living is beautiful, and girlfriend, you need to make the most out all your days. Don't wait for a guy to call you beautiful. Or then cry when they call you something that you know you aren't. That's when you kick them to curb and let them know what they missed. And you look in that mirror and call yourself beautiful and all the things you are! Because remember "No boy is worth crying over, and the one who is won't make you cry."
As you can see 2012 has taught me so much. And I was wise enough to actually learn something that I hope will stick with me for many more years. Please, comment below with what you have learned. It's been good 2012, but I have a hot New Year's Eve date with my TV and ice cream.
"Keep smiling because life is a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."-Marilyn Monroe
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